I thought since I've been waffling on my training and haven't done a thing this week from lack of motivation, I would put out some quotes I ran across to help me. It seems like the thing to do, since I'm having a mental meltdown, and I need some encouragement and motivation to get moving and train. So here goes.......
"Every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end"
" Always smile, because somewhere out there, there is someone thinking of you"
" I do it because i can. I can because i want to. I want to because you said i couldn't."
"Expecting life to treat you well because you are a good person, is like expecting and angry bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian"
"Lose one friend, Lose all friends, Lose self"
"Why is it that 100 good deeds is overlooked by 1 mistake?
"Sometimes things fall apart for other things to fall in place."
"learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow"
"Life is to short, so kiss slowly, forgive quickly, forget the past, but remember everything it taught you"
Does this help? .....Naaaw, but I like the quotes.
Happy Easter!
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Friday, March 14, 2008
Is that Spring in the air???
Today was awesome! sunny, around 3C no wind, so I put on my run shorts, then my track pants over top, a long sleeve t-shirt and my windbreaker on and went for a run outside for the first time in about a year or more!!...
It was a tricky run, I had to take care as not to roll an ankle, I had to go slow and maneuver allot along the sidewalks, which are still snow covered, along with slush, ice and water from today's melting, But I Did it!! actually it was kind of cool running along the sidewalks with the snow along the sides at waist height.
I put in a leisurely 5k run and it felt good. I was even sweating! I had a bead of sweat coming down the side of my forehead,? that's something you rarely see on me in the summer? let alone during the cool temps i endured today? matter of fact my shirt was soaking wet when i finished. Must be all the extra insulation on me? ie; FAT!!
Lots of snow was melting today, not so much from being warm but from the strong sunlight today and no wind. The roads had rivers of water rolling down the sides later in the day, along the huge snowbanks that were shrinking before my eyes, and flowing into the closest sewer drain that are covered over still by the snowbanks.
I got so excited I took out my cruiser bike after my run, ( my wife's walmart special heavy steel bike with the wide tires) and tooted around for a few to 10km, Woooooo!...but my back was soaking wet from spray of my back tire, still it felt good to ride out doors.
Hopefully this trend will continue and we will be rid of all the bad snow!! bad bad snow!! Go away snow!!
But not so? from what i hear or saw on the news? we still have some cold days and a few more snow day to come, and actually? we have always had at least one last blast of snow in April up here, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed this year for warm and sunny days, so I can ride again!!
It was a tricky run, I had to take care as not to roll an ankle, I had to go slow and maneuver allot along the sidewalks, which are still snow covered, along with slush, ice and water from today's melting, But I Did it!! actually it was kind of cool running along the sidewalks with the snow along the sides at waist height.
I put in a leisurely 5k run and it felt good. I was even sweating! I had a bead of sweat coming down the side of my forehead,? that's something you rarely see on me in the summer? let alone during the cool temps i endured today? matter of fact my shirt was soaking wet when i finished. Must be all the extra insulation on me? ie; FAT!!
Lots of snow was melting today, not so much from being warm but from the strong sunlight today and no wind. The roads had rivers of water rolling down the sides later in the day, along the huge snowbanks that were shrinking before my eyes, and flowing into the closest sewer drain that are covered over still by the snowbanks.
I got so excited I took out my cruiser bike after my run, ( my wife's walmart special heavy steel bike with the wide tires) and tooted around for a few to 10km, Woooooo!...but my back was soaking wet from spray of my back tire, still it felt good to ride out doors.
Hopefully this trend will continue and we will be rid of all the bad snow!! bad bad snow!! Go away snow!!
But not so? from what i hear or saw on the news? we still have some cold days and a few more snow day to come, and actually? we have always had at least one last blast of snow in April up here, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed this year for warm and sunny days, so I can ride again!!
Thursday, March 13, 2008
21 Years Ago today....
Happy Birthday Melissa......Daddy loves you 
It was 21 years ago today on Friday the 13Th, that this sweet baby came into my life at 1:31:30 am. Being the first of my three children, she is very special to me, all my kids are special to me but? you know? the first is a little more special. I am lucky to have her, specially with all those 13's associated with her birth. 13 is definitely my lucky number!! Melissa has given me the best 21 years of joy in my life. I love you baby!
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Going back to work and .....
Going back to work at this time is all my idea, I told my surgeon when I saw him last week I wanted to go back to work, I insisted that I wanted to go back and asked for the OK and a note to go back the 17th, but there was a snag with my LTD?
I Went to my Family doctor as per request by my LTD agent to get another note stating I can go back to work right away on the 17th, because the other note was to vague as to my ability's, so as to say i'm able to work full time hours and can manage my duty's, rather then going back to work on reduced hours and build up my work week, as they want me to. I told my agent that going back part time was not an option for me, as it would cost me to much money to drive to work and back (over and hour both ways ) for a shortened shift with only being paid for the time worked? That I was ready to work full time.
So I got the news I'm going back to work on Monday after being off from work for 9 months.
This is good and bad.
It is good because I want to go back to work and being Easter the following weekend I have a shortened work week for the first two weeks back.
Bad because I lied to the doctor about being ok to go back, but I had to!!!
If I don't go back now, I won't be able to race at Disney 70.3 or any of my planned races for that matter! I can't justify being off work and being able to do a race, albeit doing it hurt, my foot is not going to get any worse if I race?
I know it sounds stupid, but doing a race is totally different from being on my feet all day at work? I can stand the few hours of being on my feet for the sake of doing a race knowing it's over and I don't have to do it again, unlike working having to go back daily for a full 8 hours, five day's a week.
I want to move on!!
So I told the Doctor I'm a lot better, I want to go back to work, and I can manage my job with what pain I have.
There are a few reasons why?
I can't afford to lose my job over doing a race while being off work. The training I have been doing while I've been off work is/was ok as per Doctors approval and encouragement.
I could have told the doctor the truth and say it hurts to much to do my job and stay off longer, to give it more time to heal and not do my planned races, but the real reason is I can't afford to stay on LTD any longer which only pays 70% of my wage minus taxes and deductions any longer.
If I stay off work longer then one year I would lose my position at work.
If I stay off for a full two years, I lose my job and get a reduced pension of only 50% of my wage, for the rest of my life, so I can't afford to be pensioned off, that wouldn't pay the bills either.
It's Sort of a catch 22. I'm damned if I do! and damned if I don't
I'd rather go back to work so I can pay my bills!! bare the pain and with time it might get better. And to continue on the best I can with training and enjoy my planed races.
I have my Orthotic inserts!! I'll manage!!
I Went to my Family doctor as per request by my LTD agent to get another note stating I can go back to work right away on the 17th, because the other note was to vague as to my ability's, so as to say i'm able to work full time hours and can manage my duty's, rather then going back to work on reduced hours and build up my work week, as they want me to. I told my agent that going back part time was not an option for me, as it would cost me to much money to drive to work and back (over and hour both ways ) for a shortened shift with only being paid for the time worked? That I was ready to work full time.
So I got the news I'm going back to work on Monday after being off from work for 9 months.
This is good and bad.
It is good because I want to go back to work and being Easter the following weekend I have a shortened work week for the first two weeks back.
Bad because I lied to the doctor about being ok to go back, but I had to!!!
If I don't go back now, I won't be able to race at Disney 70.3 or any of my planned races for that matter! I can't justify being off work and being able to do a race, albeit doing it hurt, my foot is not going to get any worse if I race?
I know it sounds stupid, but doing a race is totally different from being on my feet all day at work? I can stand the few hours of being on my feet for the sake of doing a race knowing it's over and I don't have to do it again, unlike working having to go back daily for a full 8 hours, five day's a week.
I want to move on!!
So I told the Doctor I'm a lot better, I want to go back to work, and I can manage my job with what pain I have.
There are a few reasons why?
I can't afford to lose my job over doing a race while being off work. The training I have been doing while I've been off work is/was ok as per Doctors approval and encouragement.
I could have told the doctor the truth and say it hurts to much to do my job and stay off longer, to give it more time to heal and not do my planned races, but the real reason is I can't afford to stay on LTD any longer which only pays 70% of my wage minus taxes and deductions any longer.
If I stay off work longer then one year I would lose my position at work.
If I stay off for a full two years, I lose my job and get a reduced pension of only 50% of my wage, for the rest of my life, so I can't afford to be pensioned off, that wouldn't pay the bills either.
It's Sort of a catch 22. I'm damned if I do! and damned if I don't
I'd rather go back to work so I can pay my bills!! bare the pain and with time it might get better. And to continue on the best I can with training and enjoy my planed races.
I have my Orthotic inserts!! I'll manage!!
Monday, March 10, 2008
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Snow Storm of the Century!
It's the Snow Storm of the Century!!...Being only year 8 in this century that is? yuk!yuk!yuk!
Another huge snowstorm blew in covering us with another blanket of deep snow. It was coming down so hard that I went out every couple of hours to shovel up at least 4-6 inches of fresh snow, in all we got about 2 feet.
This morning Joanne shoveled the drive again, only up to where the plow pushed all the snow on to our driveway from plowing the street. We had no where to put it? it was about 3 feet deep and 5-6 feet wide, so we shoveled it across the road.
Another huge snowstorm blew in covering us with another blanket of deep snow. It was coming down so hard that I went out every couple of hours to shovel up at least 4-6 inches of fresh snow, in all we got about 2 feet.
This morning Joanne shoveled the drive again, only up to where the plow pushed all the snow on to our driveway from plowing the street. We had no where to put it? it was about 3 feet deep and 5-6 feet wide, so we shoveled it across the road.
Here I am leaning on the side snowbank with my arm up to show the height, mind you, on the other side of the mound is just as deep across the lawn from throwing the snow over the top.
And my close up...
NO need for training today, I am to beat from all the shoveling to do anymore exercising.
Friday, March 7, 2008
Can't go back to Work?
Although my doctor said I can go back to work on the 17th, my Ins. carrier said no I can't. WTF??
I called my Ins. carrier person who is looking after my file to let her know I got the OK from the Doctor to go back to work. She quickly said, no I can't, not until I get assessed by there rehab specialist from the Ins. company.
She wanted me to Fax her my note from the doctor, (which i did today) to her first, before she can do any processing. She then asked me a bunch of questions about my doctors visit, what he said etc. She told me once she receives the Faxed note she will start the process, but she won't be able to get to it until the end of march break.
She told me when she gets the Fax, she will make an appointment with the rehab specialist to meet with me and evaluate me, which will take a few weeks to book. Then after I get evaluated with rehab specialist, they have to do a report to decide if I'm ready to go back to my job at work. Then the rehab specialist has to set up a meeting with my employer to let them know my progress? which could be another week? and if acceptable to the rehab specialist and my employer that I meet all the criteria and can do my job? then I can go back to work.
So I won't be going back to work for a while yet?
I called my Ins. carrier person who is looking after my file to let her know I got the OK from the Doctor to go back to work. She quickly said, no I can't, not until I get assessed by there rehab specialist from the Ins. company.
She wanted me to Fax her my note from the doctor, (which i did today) to her first, before she can do any processing. She then asked me a bunch of questions about my doctors visit, what he said etc. She told me once she receives the Faxed note she will start the process, but she won't be able to get to it until the end of march break.
She told me when she gets the Fax, she will make an appointment with the rehab specialist to meet with me and evaluate me, which will take a few weeks to book. Then after I get evaluated with rehab specialist, they have to do a report to decide if I'm ready to go back to my job at work. Then the rehab specialist has to set up a meeting with my employer to let them know my progress? which could be another week? and if acceptable to the rehab specialist and my employer that I meet all the criteria and can do my job? then I can go back to work.
So I won't be going back to work for a while yet?
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Not going to quit yet!
I decided I won't quit yet, I'll keep training the best I can, and I will decide later if I want to pull out of IMLP. I have until June 1st to pull out and get a refund.
http://www.nasports.com/withdrawal/index.php
As for Disney 70.3 I'm still going down in May, but might not race. I'm still planing on going down for my daughters sake, to take her to Disney World for her birthday, and to see my friends. But if I do take in the race? maybe I'll just swim and bike the course and DNF the run, it's hard to say now. I'll give my training a chance and see how my running goes? I'm running 1 hour on the treadmill now so in 12 weeks from now I may be able to finish the run if I stay healthy. After that I will reassess myself to see about doing IMLP.
http://www.nasports.com/withdrawal/index.php
As for Disney 70.3 I'm still going down in May, but might not race. I'm still planing on going down for my daughters sake, to take her to Disney World for her birthday, and to see my friends. But if I do take in the race? maybe I'll just swim and bike the course and DNF the run, it's hard to say now. I'll give my training a chance and see how my running goes? I'm running 1 hour on the treadmill now so in 12 weeks from now I may be able to finish the run if I stay healthy. After that I will reassess myself to see about doing IMLP.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Not good news..... Do I Quit?
I saw my surgeon this morning, and things don't look so good. He said I'm probably going to remain at 80% and I will have to deal with the pain in my foot, but in time the pain may diminish. Maybe a few more shockwave treatment may help if you can afford to do it?
I asked about running with my foot? he said I should be OK to run, but says maybe my running day's are over, that it's OK to continue swimming and biking, or other activities that don't aggravate my foot.
SO there you have it, my Running days are over! .....well at least anything long. I kind of knew that, So now I have a decision to make, DO I quit doing Ironman and only do shorter tri's? ...Should I do IMLP?
He said he won't/can't operate, as it could make things worse. He asked if I feel I'm ready to go back to work, or if I need more time off. He said I could go back on reduced hours to start and if I can't manage the work I can always book off again. I told him I'm as ready as ever to go back, but I'll go back to full time and I will just have to HTFU! ... lol
I told him I don't have a choice I can't afford to stay off any longer, because LTD doesn't pay the bills and I'm already behind on my mortgage.
He gave me a note for work saying I can start back on the 17th St.Patty's day...hey that might be lucky?? He said I will have to continue using my night splint, othotics and stretching and keep as active running as I can manage.
He took a look at my right calf, after I told him the story of how I tore it diving. He said it's coming along nicely, that the muscle I tore is a common one that basketball players injure all the time, and it will take up to 3 months to fully heal. I asked if it's ok to get back to diving yet? He said, if it feels strong enough? sure! same as with running, but to be careful not to over do it, take it slow. ( which I already knew)
So what to do? ? ? ? Maybe I'll take up bowling again?
DO I QUIT??? ... SHOULD I QUIT???
I asked about running with my foot? he said I should be OK to run, but says maybe my running day's are over, that it's OK to continue swimming and biking, or other activities that don't aggravate my foot.
SO there you have it, my Running days are over! .....well at least anything long. I kind of knew that, So now I have a decision to make, DO I quit doing Ironman and only do shorter tri's? ...Should I do IMLP?
He said he won't/can't operate, as it could make things worse. He asked if I feel I'm ready to go back to work, or if I need more time off. He said I could go back on reduced hours to start and if I can't manage the work I can always book off again. I told him I'm as ready as ever to go back, but I'll go back to full time and I will just have to HTFU! ... lol
I told him I don't have a choice I can't afford to stay off any longer, because LTD doesn't pay the bills and I'm already behind on my mortgage.
He gave me a note for work saying I can start back on the 17th St.Patty's day...hey that might be lucky?? He said I will have to continue using my night splint, othotics and stretching and keep as active running as I can manage.
He took a look at my right calf, after I told him the story of how I tore it diving. He said it's coming along nicely, that the muscle I tore is a common one that basketball players injure all the time, and it will take up to 3 months to fully heal. I asked if it's ok to get back to diving yet? He said, if it feels strong enough? sure! same as with running, but to be careful not to over do it, take it slow. ( which I already knew)
So what to do? ? ? ? Maybe I'll take up bowling again?
DO I QUIT??? ... SHOULD I QUIT???
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