Coming along

Things are settling down for me and I'm feeling better and getting sleep. It will take a while for full recovery while my medication takes effect. I think I almost had a half smile the other day. ;)

While I'm waiting to become happy again I have been focusing on nothing. I just don't feel like doing anything. The Prozac I'm taking makes me tired and all I want to do is lay around. I make myself go out to the gym and I have been swimming and running, but in a more laid back don't give a damn way. While running I feel like I'm going through the motions but there is no effort intensity or drive to my motions, at least not like I used to train with my less is more plan. I feel like my run isn't doing anything as I move my legs on the treadmill with my arms swaying slightly and my head just staring out and thinking la la la... until I finish my runs.

With my swims I get the same thing, no drive. Even my swim times are getting slower as I go thought my motions. I can barely crack 18 min on my 1000m now.

As for weight? My weight is finally coming down, maybe that's why my swim times are slower? less buoyancy? lol....I may make my goal weight of 220lb for the Around the bay 30k race March 27th as I planed.

I have one month left until Around the Bay 30k race that I'm doing with my wife Joanne. She is training very well, doing her first 20k run last Sunday building her distance nicely, although she did have problems with calf cramping. I think she will do well and finish better then she expects, as she has no confidence in her ability's. That is where I will come in. On race day I will be pacing her along to get her to the finish. As for me my longest run is and will only be 10k in training as my knees can't take the strain or pain of going longer. I have no worries for doing the distance with Joanne, as Joannes running is much slower then my running. I will just gut it out on race day and take extra pain killers to numb my knees. Going long on race day with Joanne will be like a long day of training for me, which I can bare the pain in my knees to get her across the finish line for her first stand alone long distance race.


:/